“It is hard to walk away from a relationship no matter how bad it has become. You can feel your heart break when you think of breaking your significant other’s heart. Tears fill your eyes as you imagine how he/she would react when you tell him/her the bad news. Your knees weaken with the thought of going through a new day without his/her smile, words of encouragement, i-love-you’s, i-miss-you’s and loving stare. You already feel empty even when you have not even begun taking a single step away. You start reliving the happy moments, because you don’t want to part with them; because deep inside, you still hope that you can both sort things out and make it work. You begin to fill your mind with sad and painful moments and realized that during those times which made you cry a lot, you are somewhat grateful because it’s him - the one who hurt you, made you cry, helped you give pain a different meaning. All because he is worth it. You start doubting your decision about leaving; and in the end, you’d decide to stay. When you tell your friends about this, they will get mad because you are almost there; you are just one step away from freedom. But just give them a sweet smile because no matter how much you try to explain, they will never understand why. Because they are not in your shoes. Because they are not you.”
— why leaving someone is a hard thing to do (m.b)
and i will always wonder why it is so easy for him to leave me
The fact that I still say “Good morning/night, Maru” every time I woke up or before I sleep (as if you hear it) makes me feel like I am an idiot. I am, aren’t I?
*cue Hermione’s voice saying “What an idiot.”*
and i never got to tell you how
i’m badly hurting now,
and i’m building all these walls
to never let the feelings out
that i love you, that i love you
all the way from here
keep my distance, keep my distance
hide behind my fears
and you told me,
it’s not easy
what do you think i’m going through?
said you love me, then you left me
where do i go from here?
I’ve finally realized that, there is really a difference between feeling okay and feeling happy.
take me away to a far away place and hold my hand like we are two people way too in love with each other’s entirety. i want to get lost in your love.
one step closer to d….
— (via mediwriter)